My baby sister is PREGNANT!!!!!1

Known for a while but just wanted to write how happy I am for her and Zikki... I just cant believe shes actually pregnant!!! Im so happy for them... But definitely jealous! She's wanted to be a mommy for a LONG time.. so have I.. i just know One, I dont want to bring a child in this world with one parent who has some kind of income...(ME with my disability) and Two, I dont think I could take care of a child the way they would need to be cared for with my M.S being the way its been for a few years now... I want to be able to carry them myself, give them a bath, play with them... mentally, I am READY to be a mommy... shit Im 25 going on 26 this year... Josh Ha is bout to be 28!!!! It just hurts me that he's told me how he TRIED to get his EX pregnant... ARGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!! ok I dont even want to start thinkin bout that BITCH! so yeah im just goin to cut this short... right now before my emotions start messing with me... FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!! TOO LATE!

Save...Me....

I've decided to start the M.S. injections.... Since the last one I actually took was in 2002 when I was first diagnosed...I only took them for a total of maybe 2-3 weeks then i just stopped! it hurt sooooo bad and Me having to stick myself everyday....was terrifying! Which is kinda funny! Me with my 15 tattoos and 10 piercings... I cant give myself a damn injection!!! I try to explain it to my Doctors that I WANT the tattoos and piercings, its like an adrenaline rush.. a Natural HIGH for me... I just zone out and think of what I'm getting and WHY! BUT I know in my heart m M.S is getting worse.. so If I want to have babies one day and maybe a steady job (My own business...maybe a restaurant..) I better start trying to slow down the progression now! I'm just scared... Josh HATES needles and I'm scared what if we get our own place and I cant give myself  the injection when i need it... whats going to happen... I just hope and PRAY he really loves me the way he says he does and that he will do that for me.. cuz I know I would do it for him... I'd do just about ANYTHING for him! alright well.. I'm just getting myself depressed thinking bout this shit... so I'm gunna go... Happy I have a Blog now.. wohoo my own little diary that random ass people can read... kinda funny!