My baby sister is PREGNANT!!!!!1

Known for a while but just wanted to write how happy I am for her and Zikki... I just cant believe shes actually pregnant!!! Im so happy for them... But definitely jealous! She's wanted to be a mommy for a LONG time.. so have I.. i just know One, I dont want to bring a child in this world with one parent who has some kind of income...(ME with my disability) and Two, I dont think I could take care of a child the way they would need to be cared for with my M.S being the way its been for a few years now... I want to be able to carry them myself, give them a bath, play with them... mentally, I am READY to be a mommy... shit Im 25 going on 26 this year... Josh Ha is bout to be 28!!!! It just hurts me that he's told me how he TRIED to get his EX pregnant... ARGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!! ok I dont even want to start thinkin bout that BITCH! so yeah im just goin to cut this short... right now before my emotions start messing with me... FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!! TOO LATE!